Well today I left to Texas I'm going to miss all the people in my life. I'm going to miss my baby and soon ill be back. I hope everyone is doing great and ill see you soon. o and the Air Force is not that bad , I think it is alot easier then I thought .

love all you bitch's ...........Johnny

ps Kayla ill miss you the most .................o  and Billy

man I miss the way things use to be... I loved the old times... I just want things to be how they use to... when I had nothing to worry about.. it was just me and my friends and my girl.... recently.. everything has been falling apat... I love that girl so fucking much... I love my friends so much to.. I have no clue what to do anymore.. at one time I was so sure about what to do in my life.. now I dont even know whatto do about ym problems... why do you have to put me through so much pain god... I know I dont go to church as much as I could and do all the good things that I could but I try.. why do I have to go through all the pain.. I pray and say Im sorry for the bad stuff Ive done.. I pray for other people and hope that they do well.. why do you have to do this to me? Ive had it with my life rigt now... I just want to be gone.... I cant be the tough, stone person I use to be anymore.. its hard to be happy now... I know how people feel in this situation now.... Im sorry for all the pain I caused.. but Ill be gone soon... i wont have to worry about any of this... but I just want to ask right now

Kayla will you marry me

() Rocky Horror Picture Show
(X) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
() Boondock Saints
() The Mexican
(x) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
(x) Airplane
Total: 7


(x) The Princess Bride
(x) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
(X) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth 
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
(x) White Noise
() White Oleander
() Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
Total: 8 

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
() American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
() American Wedding
() American Pie Band Camp
Total: 7


(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil I
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
() Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch.
() Lilo & Stitch 2: Stitch has a Glitch
Total: 9

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) Thirteen Going on 30
(x) I, Robot 
Total: 8

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(x) Universal Soldier
(x) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came Polly
() Deep Impact 
() KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
Total: 7

() A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal 
()The Lizzie McGuire Movie
() Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumb & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination2
(x) Final destination 3
() Halloween
(x) The Ring 
(x)The Ring 2
Total: 8

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
() Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
() Ghost Ship
() From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
() The Whole Nine Yards
Total: 5

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
() Just Married
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
(x) Coach Carter
Total: 10

(x) Bad Boys 2
() Joy Ride
() Se7en
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Identity
() Lone Star
() Bedazzled
() Predator I 
() Predator II
TOTAL: 4

(x) Independence Day
() Cujo
() A Bronx Tale
() Darkness Falls
() Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
() My Boss' daughter
() Maid in Manhattan
() Frailty
Total: 3

() Best Bet
() How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
() Calendar Girls
() Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
() Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
() Big Trouble in Little China
Total:3

(x) X-Men
(x) X2
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
(x) Jeepers Creepers 2
() Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Others
() Freaky Friday
() Reign of Fire
() Cruel Intentions
() Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
Total: 9

(x) Swimfan
() Miracle
(x) Old School
(x) The Notebook
(x) K-Pax
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) Walk to Remember
(x) Boogeyman
Total: 9

(x) Hitch
(x) The Fifth Element 
(x) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
(x) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(x) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi 
() Troop Beverly Hills
() Swimming with Sharks
Total: 8

() Air Force One
() For Richer or Poorer
() Trainspotting
(x) People Under the Stairs
() Blue Velvet
() Sound of music
(x) Parent Trap
(x) Parent Trap Re-make
() The Birds
(x) The Terminator
(x) terminator-2
(x) T-3
Total: 6

(x) Empire Records 
() SLC Punk
() Meet Joe Black
(x) Nightmare Before Christmas
(x) The Silence of the Lambs
(x) Sleepy Hollow
() I Heart Huckabees
() 24 Hour Party People
() Blood
Total: 4

(x)Thirteen
(x) Manic
(x) American History X
() Deep Blue Sea
(x) George of the Jungle
() Canadian Bacon
() Big Black Titties
(x) How High
(x) The Jacket
() My little pony 1986
total: 6

wow 121 in total............ no youre a loser

leaving............. didnt think I would need to leave all at once.. but you gotta do what you gotta do... I have so much here though... and recently I have found so many people and reasons to stay here.... things i nevhappening... are happening.... I have thoughts and feelings that are new to me.. I have found what I want right here... but I have to go... maybe life is supposed to be like this..... maybe we arent supposed to be as happy as we want to be... maybe thats what keeps us going.... but these recent things i feel.... if it were a few months ago I would have welcomed them... but now.... I.... dont know what to do.... staying will leave me with a poor and steady life.... leaving will lead me to  a well off, more lonely life.... dude.......

my dream:

get married - to a girl who is perfect for me.. meaning a little mean, sarcastic funy, likes to be held, wont get mad over small things, and can put up with my crap and brush it off 

own a house - a two story small house

have 3 kids - agressive little kids that love to play sports

and my fucking car -

now thats sexy